The person that took this picture should be in this picture.
Before I got married, I was used to leading worship by myself. Learning to share leadership with someone else was – while a blessing, considering who it was – still new, and sometimes not as easy as I would’ve thought.
But now 8 years into our marriage, and thousand of events later, I hate being on stage without her. To the point that I perform more poorly, feeling musically and spiritually stripped.
I’ve become habitually dependent.
The word “habit” lends itself to the negative connotation; but habits were never the issue.
The habituated behavior is the one we allow habitation.
Since God takes habitation very seriously, how much of your life is inhabited by Him? And is it a habit? What habits in your life does He have allowance to put His finger on, and how teachable are you to Him on them?
Further, it was never your habits He was bent on, but how reliant you are on Him. Your level of habitual dependence, if you will.
A truly inhabited Believer is marked by dependence, and habitually insufficient by themselves. To the point that he or she visibly suffers in the absence of God. He is the most rewarding habit worth engaging in.
Today, my wife was worshipping with the children in the congregation, in need of recovering more strength before she’s ready to join me again. And I’m left confronting my sweet state of dependence.
Photo by Jennifer Hopper. ch: